You have become desensitized to your own trauma. You have become numb to your own pain. You have become unaware of the heart beating violently in your chest, the screams that you hold down so nobody can tell that you’re dying inside.
Let it out. Feel your emotions and your hurt. Stop apologizing for your heartbreak.
You’re not coping. You’re not dealing. You’re not seeing that your life could be so much more, that there is a potential inside of you that could change the world. Understand that the words you speak to yourself are more powerful than what others say about you. You have allowed love and kindness to become the things that you give to everyone else, while your own heart and soul withers away.
Why? Why do you do this to yourself when you should be the first thing you take care of when you wake up in the morning? Why do you keep giving yourself excuses to be everything that you’re not while everything that you are fades away? You’re losing yourself in the struggle when that is exactly where you’re supposed to be finding yourself.
Stop. Have you forgotten that you are alive? Have you forgotten that you are important? Look at how far you’ve come and don’t waste another second. You have one life, one body that you need to love and cherish. It’s not too late.